No sleep

Some of my friends at work held a prayer chain for me on Thurs. It worked! Friday I was over my funk from the test results, and believe that a new direction is needed for my treatment. It somehow became crystal clear after hearing about the prayer chain. The discussion with the Dr. pointed out that we are no longer on the same page. There are other things to start trying. Don't laugh, but I just read Suzanne Somer's book "Breakthrough, 8 steps to Wellness". She does seem a bit out there sometimes, but it opened my eyes to all the possibilities in treating cancer beside chemo and radiation. I was so excited for a couple days that it was hard to sleep.

I remember saying to the Dr, that if the chemo was working, I wanted to stay on it until the cancer was gone. He responded that my body wouldn't be able to handle it for that long, it can't handle the toxicity levels that prolonged chemo would bring. He also said that in 6 months I would be glad of that. He was right. After another chemo treatment on Tues, I feel crappy. Not crappy enough that I can't move, but crappy enough. I can't get anyone at Mayo to admit that diet really makes a difference - not even the nutritionists. There is so much information out there and it all contradicts itself, no wonder people just follow the traditional path. Who has time to figure out what's right and what really works?? I just finally decided that I'll finish out the chemo (maybe) while researching my other options. I have never believed in drugs (for most of my own problems - there is certainly a place for them in medicine - although after surgery the Vicodin sure was nice :)) Why should I continue to compromise that belief now? There are other options to explore. Right after the crappy wears off.