It's raining ducks

I spend most of my time convinced, or convincing myself that I'm not sick. By the way, we're no longer saying I have cancer, now it's just an "illness". It works most of the time, but there are those moments when you just get blindsided by the "illness" slapping you in the face. Pretty much whenever I try to plan something more than a week out, will I have chemo? Or when you hear about someone who's not doing well. Farrah Fawcett is all over the tv and internet. Or when you worry about the waffles you just ate, even if they did have real maple syrup on them. A whole foods diet is much harder than you think. Maybe it would be easier if I had a guarantee that it would work. Funny how life doesn't hand you any guarantees. Ha, ha.

It's been nice enough to go for bike rides, plant flowers, and avoid housework. Hopefully the sun will burn off the last of the colds that the girls and I have been carrying around for a couple weeks. It's soccer season and it would be nice if the weather would warm up a tad for us parents sitting on the fields....Kate asked me this morning if she was going to score a goal. WHAT did I do with that crystal ball?? She just figured out that Joe and I were boyfriend and girlfriend before we got married. For some reason that was just hilarious. Then she wanted to know if all the boys were sad when I married daddy. Bless her heart. Yes, Kate, they were devastated, crying for weeks, some of them are still in therapy....wait, that's Joe.

Next Dr. visit is the beginning of June, right after Jenna gets her braces (it is NOT fun watching your 8 year old get 4 teeth yanked out of her mouth). No scans, but conversation on next steps for treatment. I still want to have the chemos tested against my tumors before they go in the bod, hopefully delaying treatment until the end of summer.

For those of you that have seen the movie "Earth", they show two baby ducks falling out of a tree from 5 different camera angles, so Kate said it was raining ducks. It's not nearly as cute in the retelling, but it still makes me laugh!

Too much thinking

Here's what I'm thinking......the scan last week didn't show any real movement in the tumors since last September. Since chemo works on rapidly dividing cells, the only thing it would be working on would be my hair since the cancer is taking a little break. Therefore I should be able to postpone chemo for the summer !! :) YES I will discuss this with the Dr and probably find out why my theory is flawed, but I'm really enjoying getting out. The weather is great and I feel great. Although it was too hot for the dog on the walk today. We went about 1 1/2 blocks when she stopped and looked at me. She communicated telepathically that it was too hot for a 13 year old, black dog. So, we turned around and went home and I had to finish the walk on my own.

There was also a news story on Kare 11 about Precision Therapeutics. They test chemos against your tumor in the lab to see if they work BEFORE you shoot up. It doesn't always work since the body has a million variants the lab doesn't. Yet, doesn't it sound like a good idea? The last chemo didn't do anything, it would be nice to know which ones might....